A while back I decided that I would try focusing on one project for 30 days. That was back in the summer. I took it further than 30 days and stuck with it all the way through October.
Now I'm more comfortable than ever with the decision to put it aside once and for all.
I can't do the comic anymore. It simply doesn't hold my interest. I tried really hard. I got to page 24 of Jet Dancer's comic last week. Then I started getting more commissions that I actually wanted to do (mostly color jobs but some illustrations too), commissions that had me putting the comic aside. And between commissions, I found myself working hard on my WCL project again, not only the tabletop game but also the story and character bios, which are nearly finished.
I just feel like it shouldn't be this hard to make a comic. Yeah, it should be hard, but it should be the kind of hard that makes me enjoy the challenge, not the kind of hard that makes me look at the comic the same way I look at my day job.
So I'm going to follow my heart and shelve the Jet Dancer comic. I'm going to post all of the pages I've done so far on Rocketbot.com, and I'll repost them here as well. I'm not all that concerned about selling or monetizing the comic because I don't think I'm ever going to finish it. But I DO care about Jet Dancer as my character. I feel I probably built the wrong story around her, one that doesn't really appeal to me or suit the character as I originally envisioned her--she needs a reboot of some kind (haha...'boot'). I'll find a use for her yet, but comics aren't it.
Maybe it was just a clash of values. I don't know if the problem was the story I wrote for Jet, Jet's character design in general, or if comics themselves are the problem, but either way, I wasn't enjoying what I was doing at all
, so I stopped.
At least now I know that little bit about myself. I've always suspected it (after all, I hadn't finished a comic I started since I was 18 years old), but I wanted to make certain. I wanted to put real effort into a comic before I made this call, and I think 24 pages is enough to know for sure.
Maybe I'll change my mind later when I finish with another project. I'm not going to delete anything. After all, I started
the Jet book in, what, 2009? But right now, I'm just not feeling it and I don't think that's going to change. I'm searching to renew my artistic identity, and I feel like if I don't like what I'm doing, I should just do something else.